Around February 2010, I was ready to call the doctor. I wanted answers. Of course, I knew it would take months to get in. And it did. Our first appointment wasn’t until May 2010. When we met our doctor, we did all the tests and everything was fine. We were diagnosed as unexplained infertility. During June, July and August 2010, we tried Clomid with IUI. When each attempt failed, we decided we needed a break. In February 2011, we tried IUI with injectible drugs. I was so certain this would be it for us. It wasn’t.
Back in April of 2011, I attended a conference in Kansas City about infertility awareness. As soon as I walked into the room at the event, I knew immediately that St. Louis needed the same thing. And I was going to do just that! With the help of Mistie and Alyssa, Midwest Infertility Awareness formed. I hope that this organization will help many, but really, if it helps just one, I will be happy. I don’t want another person to have to feel the way I felt during my treatments. I hope to meet new friends and provide support to those who need it the most. I’ll end this with a quote from a song I love so much.
“I will learn to let go what I cannot change. I will learn to forgive what I cannot change. I will learn to love what I cannot change. But I will change, I will change. Whatever I, whenever I can.” LeAnn Rimes
I was at a loss. Why? Why us? Why didn't it work? Why? Why? Why? I knew I had to pick up the pieces and move forward but for once in my life, I had no idea HOW. I went home for the holidays and had a nice long meeting with a good pastor friend, Brother Mark. We discussed many things and I left feeling like I had some answers, not all but I felt like I had found a starting place on how to function again.